a repost from multiply. the original was posted there last feb 5, 2008.
my audacious list 8 months before i turned 30. as they say, you have to dream big to achieve lots. the achieve-lots part is the harder part...
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i've actually mentioned this in my friendster shoutout. also, they say that for things to happen, you have to write them down so that you'll always see them and commit to fulfill them. so here goes...
1. i love scrapbooking, when i have time. so, update my hard copy photo album
2. complete my savings account quota. i've fallen a little behind on this
3. grow my hair long, but not yet sure if straight and black or curly and colored
4. go out of town or do some cultural thing quarterly
5. learn to drive
6. be active in basa, a group focused on reading workshops
7. exercise regularly (currently, this is done at home with exercise machines)
8. attend a ddi facilitation skills workshop
9. shop for key pieces to complete my wardrobe
10. watch an imax movie at mall of asia
11. read books in my possession that i haven't opened yet
12. enter into financial stuff, like mutual funds or something
13. try a diamond peel or teeth whitening. at least, it's not a tattoo or a piercing
14. family vacation in davao or palawan
15. learn basic korean (conversational and hangul or writing)
16. attend another retreat
17. undergo an executive check-up
18. join mama in her facilitating projects to hone my facilitating skills
19. regularly meet ld people for baga sessions. they're kamustahan venues
20. watch something from the amazing philippine theater
21. reconnect with friends from school or work (especially the ones i've "lost" along the way)
22. augment my income with another racket / business
23. be more open to meeting friends of friends
24. stabilize my monthly pampering treatments (whether spa or salon)
25. re-read the ld manual from my time. do examen
26. donate blood
27. communicate deeper with God
28. go ice-skating
29. be active in the ld faci pool
30. go back to writing thoughts on paper / blogging
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Sunday, July 18, 2010
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
about me
a repost. original entry was from multiply posted last oct. 21, 2007.
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1. I played a neighborhood kid in the kiddie show "Kalye Sesame" (It was later renamed "Batibot").
2. My supastah wannabe occupation is a plus-size model. I also have my stand-up comedienne routines ready.
3. I have moments when I obsess on sharpening pencils or crayons. I even like it if I can sharpen both ends until they touch (think diamond-shaped pill).
4. My other irrational preoccupation is watching how the wax of a lighted candle melts...and meddling with it if it doesn't melt evenly.
5. I got my fascination for the French language from my mom and got interested in Greek Mythology because of my dad.
6. Unfortunately, I do not like having pets. Animal visitors are ok.
7. I am not fond of powders, hankies, watches and hats. What I am fond of are bottles of nail polish and dangling earrings.
8. Jack of all trades, master of none (due to taking up a lot of summer lessons when I was a kid).
9. I love looking at sketches but can't make one myself. Included in my list of other visual arts that I like: paintings, sculptures, architecture, interior design, fashion design, photography
10. I used to sell romantic greeting cards to classmates. Entrepreneurial, huh?
11. Teaching is my passion, but it does not necessarily have to be in a classroom. But I still love to be with kids, even the special ones.
12. Barbie was my best friend when I couldn't go out to play because of my asthma. My playmates and I even had story lines.
13. I don't know how to play any musical instrument. The farthest I got was plucking "Black Bird" and tapping the keys for "Chopsticks".
14. "Carebears" was my favorite cartoon show. There was also "Rainbow Brite" and "The Smurfs".
15. I absolutely love Snickers bars. Or any chocolate bar (or piece) with any kind of nut, for that matter.
16. Ballroom dancing is something I am proud I can do. Just don't dip or lift me. Hehehe!
17. I used to think I was adopted since I did not look like my mom. It wasn't in my consciousness then that I must've gotten my features from my dad's side.
18. My relationship with my siblings may not be perfect, but it's great. We laugh, we tease, we joke, we bicker, we tickle...
19. I liked my experiences in school, generally. Contrary to popular belief, it wasn't all goody-two-shoes and square.
20. Gardening is not my thing. Plastic foliage suits me.
21. I was drawn to anything occult or paranormal before because of my family history. No, we're no witches. More of psychics or mediums.
22. Famous people I like are the late Pope John Paul II, Tina Fey, Mike Myers, Oprah, Al Pacino, Ellen deGeneres, Conan O'Brien and the late Princess Diana.
23. I used to write poems as an outlet. I have to make time for computerization, pronto!
24. Syringes and laboratory tests don't make me squeamish at all. I even look when the needle goes in.
25. I've done almost everything to my hair, except make cornrows of / braid it and shave it all off.
26. I have a lot of creative ideas when I photograph. It pains me when I am the one photographed and it doesn't look nice.
27. Swings, laughing babies, sunsets, visiting museums, joyrides, and blowing bubbles make me smile.
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1. I played a neighborhood kid in the kiddie show "Kalye Sesame" (It was later renamed "Batibot").
2. My supastah wannabe occupation is a plus-size model. I also have my stand-up comedienne routines ready.
3. I have moments when I obsess on sharpening pencils or crayons. I even like it if I can sharpen both ends until they touch (think diamond-shaped pill).
4. My other irrational preoccupation is watching how the wax of a lighted candle melts...and meddling with it if it doesn't melt evenly.
5. I got my fascination for the French language from my mom and got interested in Greek Mythology because of my dad.
6. Unfortunately, I do not like having pets. Animal visitors are ok.
7. I am not fond of powders, hankies, watches and hats. What I am fond of are bottles of nail polish and dangling earrings.
8. Jack of all trades, master of none (due to taking up a lot of summer lessons when I was a kid).
9. I love looking at sketches but can't make one myself. Included in my list of other visual arts that I like: paintings, sculptures, architecture, interior design, fashion design, photography
10. I used to sell romantic greeting cards to classmates. Entrepreneurial, huh?
11. Teaching is my passion, but it does not necessarily have to be in a classroom. But I still love to be with kids, even the special ones.
12. Barbie was my best friend when I couldn't go out to play because of my asthma. My playmates and I even had story lines.
13. I don't know how to play any musical instrument. The farthest I got was plucking "Black Bird" and tapping the keys for "Chopsticks".
14. "Carebears" was my favorite cartoon show. There was also "Rainbow Brite" and "The Smurfs".
15. I absolutely love Snickers bars. Or any chocolate bar (or piece) with any kind of nut, for that matter.
16. Ballroom dancing is something I am proud I can do. Just don't dip or lift me. Hehehe!
17. I used to think I was adopted since I did not look like my mom. It wasn't in my consciousness then that I must've gotten my features from my dad's side.
18. My relationship with my siblings may not be perfect, but it's great. We laugh, we tease, we joke, we bicker, we tickle...
19. I liked my experiences in school, generally. Contrary to popular belief, it wasn't all goody-two-shoes and square.
20. Gardening is not my thing. Plastic foliage suits me.
21. I was drawn to anything occult or paranormal before because of my family history. No, we're no witches. More of psychics or mediums.
22. Famous people I like are the late Pope John Paul II, Tina Fey, Mike Myers, Oprah, Al Pacino, Ellen deGeneres, Conan O'Brien and the late Princess Diana.
23. I used to write poems as an outlet. I have to make time for computerization, pronto!
24. Syringes and laboratory tests don't make me squeamish at all. I even look when the needle goes in.
25. I've done almost everything to my hair, except make cornrows of / braid it and shave it all off.
26. I have a lot of creative ideas when I photograph. It pains me when I am the one photographed and it doesn't look nice.
27. Swings, laughing babies, sunsets, visiting museums, joyrides, and blowing bubbles make me smile.
making a list... checking it twice
a friend of mine once wrote that i liked making lists. it was a question on a survey on how you'd describe your friends using one-liners. i laughed when i saw her answer on that rotating email within our clique. but i wondered if i was so obvious that of all the things, that was the one she picked.
i didn't take it as a bad thing though. come think of it, i am fond of making lists. they're not just the usual to-do lists, or the things-i-want-to-buy or places-i-wanna-go-to type of lists. topics that i was able to think of were varied.
there was a time when i made a birthday list of all the people i know. the calendar was not within my reach so i jotted down the dates on my planner, then filled them up with corresponding names. yes, i was bored and had so much time on my hands that time. tsk!
i also have an unfinished list of songs that represents my 31 years of existence (ok, i'll give you permission to steal this idea. tee-hee!). i picked songs that were important for me that year since it represented how that year had gone, or was the song i loved to sing the most at that time, probably because of an emotional attachment to it. but i can't seem to fill it up. i initially planned that for my 30th birthday but a different list came up.
that particular list was like a bucket list. i blogged about it on multiply so i came up with a title for it - "30 things to do before i hit 30" (you can steal this too ;P). i updated it a lot with how i've been progressing, or regressing for that matter. a lot of people like the idea too; i'm not just so sure if they made lists of their own. since it was posted there, i'll repost it here eventually, but with latest updates or comments on each item.
it's an unusual form of literary outlet, but i like how it supports my wittiness. lists are supposed to be rigid but they make me come up with fun comments at times. as facebook says, "like"!
i didn't take it as a bad thing though. come think of it, i am fond of making lists. they're not just the usual to-do lists, or the things-i-want-to-buy or places-i-wanna-go-to type of lists. topics that i was able to think of were varied.
there was a time when i made a birthday list of all the people i know. the calendar was not within my reach so i jotted down the dates on my planner, then filled them up with corresponding names. yes, i was bored and had so much time on my hands that time. tsk!
i also have an unfinished list of songs that represents my 31 years of existence (ok, i'll give you permission to steal this idea. tee-hee!). i picked songs that were important for me that year since it represented how that year had gone, or was the song i loved to sing the most at that time, probably because of an emotional attachment to it. but i can't seem to fill it up. i initially planned that for my 30th birthday but a different list came up.
that particular list was like a bucket list. i blogged about it on multiply so i came up with a title for it - "30 things to do before i hit 30" (you can steal this too ;P). i updated it a lot with how i've been progressing, or regressing for that matter. a lot of people like the idea too; i'm not just so sure if they made lists of their own. since it was posted there, i'll repost it here eventually, but with latest updates or comments on each item.
it's an unusual form of literary outlet, but i like how it supports my wittiness. lists are supposed to be rigid but they make me come up with fun comments at times. as facebook says, "like"!
Friday, July 2, 2010
one more chance
this is a repost from multiply. the original was posted last nov. 25, 2007.
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nyahaha! a couple of ld pips and i watched "one more chance" last night. i was in an 'emo' mode (emotional, for those who don't know) after that. i searched for my poem notebook way back when and found this fitting poem.
1995, i was 17 then.
please, paubaya nyo na sakin 'to. hehehe
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I'M STILL IN LOVE WITH YOU
i thought my life would stay the same
even if you made me cry
i promised not to shed a tear
when you fin'lly said goodbye
i tried to avoid the feeling of pain
that you left in my broken heart
i wanted my life to be whole again
even if i'm torn apart
i wished for my world to be happy once more
although i know it can not be
i hoped that i can face life with a smile
after this painful tragedy
i feel this pain in my heart until now
for i hoped that our parting wasn't true
coz i now realize deep in my heart
that i'm still in love with you
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nyahaha! a couple of ld pips and i watched "one more chance" last night. i was in an 'emo' mode (emotional, for those who don't know) after that. i searched for my poem notebook way back when and found this fitting poem.
1995, i was 17 then.
please, paubaya nyo na sakin 'to. hehehe
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I'M STILL IN LOVE WITH YOU
i thought my life would stay the same
even if you made me cry
i promised not to shed a tear
when you fin'lly said goodbye
i tried to avoid the feeling of pain
that you left in my broken heart
i wanted my life to be whole again
even if i'm torn apart
i wished for my world to be happy once more
although i know it can not be
i hoped that i can face life with a smile
after this painful tragedy
i feel this pain in my heart until now
for i hoped that our parting wasn't true
coz i now realize deep in my heart
that i'm still in love with you
Thursday, July 1, 2010
love in any language
repost from multiply. original entry was posted last dec. 20, 2008.
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SONETO XVII
No te amo como si fueras rosa de sal, topacio
o flecha de claveles que propagan el fuego:
te amo como se aman ciertas cosas oscuras,
secretamente, entre la sombra y el alma.
Te amo como la planta que no florece y lleva
dentro de sí, escondida, la luz de aquellas flores,
y gracias a tu amor vive oscuro en mi cuerpo
el apretado aroma que ascendió de la tierra.
Te amo sin saber cómo, ni cuándo, ni de dónde,
te amo directamente sin problemas ni orgullo:
así te amo porque no sé amar de otra manera,
sino así de este modo en que no soy ni eres,
tan cerca que tu mano sobre mi pecho es mía,
tan cerca que se cierran tus ojos con mi sueño.
SONNET XVII
I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.
I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.
I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way
than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.
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Every planner that I use has this poem on its last page.
I discovered it during college from an orgmate who was also into poetry.
This is Pablo Neruda’s.
This is my favorite poem.
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SONETO XVII
No te amo como si fueras rosa de sal, topacio
o flecha de claveles que propagan el fuego:
te amo como se aman ciertas cosas oscuras,
secretamente, entre la sombra y el alma.
Te amo como la planta que no florece y lleva
dentro de sí, escondida, la luz de aquellas flores,
y gracias a tu amor vive oscuro en mi cuerpo
el apretado aroma que ascendió de la tierra.
Te amo sin saber cómo, ni cuándo, ni de dónde,
te amo directamente sin problemas ni orgullo:
así te amo porque no sé amar de otra manera,
sino así de este modo en que no soy ni eres,
tan cerca que tu mano sobre mi pecho es mía,
tan cerca que se cierran tus ojos con mi sueño.
SONNET XVII
I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.
I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.
I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way
than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.
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Every planner that I use has this poem on its last page.
I discovered it during college from an orgmate who was also into poetry.
This is Pablo Neruda’s.
This is my favorite poem.
Monday, June 28, 2010
shoulds
a repost. the original was posted on multiply last apr. 2, 2008.
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it took me a while before i had a follow up blog since early feb. that was not even a "legitimate" blog as it was only an update. the culprit to that, and even to my commenting that my latest was not "legitimate", is my "shoulds" syndrome.
- a blog entry SHOULD be of an original topic and not an update on a previous one.
- a blog entry SHOULD not be senseless (which is relative) nor short (just a paragraph).
- a blog entry SHOULD be in English (since this is a global site).
- a blog entry SHOULD not be self-incriminating.
- a blog entry SHOULD be made when i am in the mood so that it turns out witty.
- a blog entry SHOULD not be negative (sad or angry).
i even panicked when i realized that march was ending and i didn't have a march entry.
SHEESH! @%#*!
imagine it being applied to my life. no wonder i've stunted my growth (no pun intended). :D
- i SHOULD be a teacher, a SpEd one at that. (that's what i wanted and haven't been open to other fields. worse, i've boxed myself up in that role)
- i SHOULD help out at home financially. (not imposed and i meant well, but didn't know that i needed to have personal savings and insurance, at the very least)
- i SHOULD find/wait for the right man. (dating to me was playing games so i didn't do it, didn't entertain guys who didn't fit the mold)
- i SHOULD have my own opinion on things and not be easily swayed by others (have turned out to be non-conformist, anti-hype, and overly stubborn at times)
- i SHOULD accommodate friends in need at all times (i have had difficulty asking for help since i have my hands full or i feel i'm being selfish - duh???)
- i SHOULD speak, act, dress, eat, exercise, pray a certain way (shoulds on practically everything)
it's tiring (precious neurons are used for worrying and over-analyzing). it's restrictive (though most are self-imposed). it's sickening (wtf? digging your own emotional grave?). BUT it's comfortable (old habits die hard). DANG! X^o
they say change is inevitable. but if you're used to something, even if it's bad, you'd dread change. that's what's happening to me. i need to drag myself to get out of my comfort zone. i vacillate since it's always easy to revert to my old self.
it's a daily struggle to take out the shoulds.
- i'm opening myself up to other career/business options.
- i'm fixing my savings and already have insurance. i'm even planning on augmenting my income.
- i'm widening my social network and enjoying their company and do not go on overdrive in finding mr. right.
- i'm trying to be more welcoming of others' opinions, especially if they're about me or how i live my life.
- i can already say no to requests. i muster enough courage to ask for help.
- i'm more spontaneous and true to myself.
i'm not listening to my this-entry-SHOULD-end-witty self, so here goes...
:D
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as this entry said, i vacillate and unfortunately, i still do until now...
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it took me a while before i had a follow up blog since early feb. that was not even a "legitimate" blog as it was only an update. the culprit to that, and even to my commenting that my latest was not "legitimate", is my "shoulds" syndrome.
- a blog entry SHOULD be of an original topic and not an update on a previous one.
- a blog entry SHOULD not be senseless (which is relative) nor short (just a paragraph).
- a blog entry SHOULD be in English (since this is a global site).
- a blog entry SHOULD not be self-incriminating.
- a blog entry SHOULD be made when i am in the mood so that it turns out witty.
- a blog entry SHOULD not be negative (sad or angry).
i even panicked when i realized that march was ending and i didn't have a march entry.
SHEESH! @%#*!
imagine it being applied to my life. no wonder i've stunted my growth (no pun intended). :D
- i SHOULD be a teacher, a SpEd one at that. (that's what i wanted and haven't been open to other fields. worse, i've boxed myself up in that role)
- i SHOULD help out at home financially. (not imposed and i meant well, but didn't know that i needed to have personal savings and insurance, at the very least)
- i SHOULD find/wait for the right man. (dating to me was playing games so i didn't do it, didn't entertain guys who didn't fit the mold)
- i SHOULD have my own opinion on things and not be easily swayed by others (have turned out to be non-conformist, anti-hype, and overly stubborn at times)
- i SHOULD accommodate friends in need at all times (i have had difficulty asking for help since i have my hands full or i feel i'm being selfish - duh???)
- i SHOULD speak, act, dress, eat, exercise, pray a certain way (shoulds on practically everything)
it's tiring (precious neurons are used for worrying and over-analyzing). it's restrictive (though most are self-imposed). it's sickening (wtf? digging your own emotional grave?). BUT it's comfortable (old habits die hard). DANG! X^o
they say change is inevitable. but if you're used to something, even if it's bad, you'd dread change. that's what's happening to me. i need to drag myself to get out of my comfort zone. i vacillate since it's always easy to revert to my old self.
it's a daily struggle to take out the shoulds.
- i'm opening myself up to other career/business options.
- i'm fixing my savings and already have insurance. i'm even planning on augmenting my income.
- i'm widening my social network and enjoying their company and do not go on overdrive in finding mr. right.
- i'm trying to be more welcoming of others' opinions, especially if they're about me or how i live my life.
- i can already say no to requests. i muster enough courage to ask for help.
- i'm more spontaneous and true to myself.
i'm not listening to my this-entry-SHOULD-end-witty self, so here goes...
:D
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as this entry said, i vacillate and unfortunately, i still do until now...
Sunday, June 27, 2010
letting my randomness out
i've actually had a lot of attempts at blogging. i tried one at friendster (which, by the way, is deleted now). i also had one at multiply. it was better there since i had interaction with some of my friends on some of my entries. alas, it's (the multiply account) on its deathbed now. the farthest i've gone on facebook are notes and they don't actually count as blogs. i also have an older one here. i created it august of last year but unfortunately, my first post was made last april. i updated with another one 2 weeks after that but i haven't posted since. i'm doing this now in lieu of that one.
since i do not have the foundation of journaling, i'm not as consistent at posting as i'd want to be. i did have diaries before, even the cutesy ones with various cartoon characters. i also had the ones with locks so that no one could pry on my thoughts for the day, my raves about my crush, or my childish rants about my 'rents and sibs. but i always ended up reading over them after i've stopped writing for about half a year. it pained me when i shredded the pages and threw them away, but i felt weird about only having 6 months of a year recorded, and with seemingly senseless, loose-ended entries at that.
also, i'm a control freak. admittedly, i've been hindering myself from posting stuff because of certain rules i made for myself. so i failed miserably at keeping a blog. (side note: i'll be reposting some of my old blogs here because they need a new abode. one of them is about this topic)
but i've recently learned the secret to my blogging success - being random!!! that's what i do with my posts in the forum that i'm a member of (shameless advertising - rocketboxx.net); and i must say that i am quite enjoying my interaction with a lot of people there. a word of caution though: it's k-pop (or korean pop)-related. it's about the korean boy band u-kiss, who i love dearly like nephews or cousins. they're a great bunch. check them out! check out the forum as well! i've made friends there who blog too and they've shared that randomness is the way to go. now knowing myself, i believe that this is for me too.
so, let the chaos ensue! hwaiting!!! (that's a korean cheer - and this is another post altogether) :D
since i do not have the foundation of journaling, i'm not as consistent at posting as i'd want to be. i did have diaries before, even the cutesy ones with various cartoon characters. i also had the ones with locks so that no one could pry on my thoughts for the day, my raves about my crush, or my childish rants about my 'rents and sibs. but i always ended up reading over them after i've stopped writing for about half a year. it pained me when i shredded the pages and threw them away, but i felt weird about only having 6 months of a year recorded, and with seemingly senseless, loose-ended entries at that.
also, i'm a control freak. admittedly, i've been hindering myself from posting stuff because of certain rules i made for myself. so i failed miserably at keeping a blog. (side note: i'll be reposting some of my old blogs here because they need a new abode. one of them is about this topic)
but i've recently learned the secret to my blogging success - being random!!! that's what i do with my posts in the forum that i'm a member of (shameless advertising - rocketboxx.net); and i must say that i am quite enjoying my interaction with a lot of people there. a word of caution though: it's k-pop (or korean pop)-related. it's about the korean boy band u-kiss, who i love dearly like nephews or cousins. they're a great bunch. check them out! check out the forum as well! i've made friends there who blog too and they've shared that randomness is the way to go. now knowing myself, i believe that this is for me too.
so, let the chaos ensue! hwaiting!!! (that's a korean cheer - and this is another post altogether) :D
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