idle time

i've been having difficulty blogging these past few days. aside from suffering from my eye allergy *sob*, i've been having a weird case of writer's block. topics have been in and out of my head and i've been drafting for like forever on some of them, but i can't seem to get my groove on fast enough to finish them.

also, i've gotten stuck with my "shoulds" again. since i've been doing fresh posts and reposts alternately, i was stumped when i realized that my repost material is thinning (plus the fact that most were emo and i don't want to go that route yet). another issue was that i wanted to post daily and with my backlog, the total now is 10 posts. but i was insistent on both. so what to do? imagine getting stuck just because of alternate posts... aish! pabo! (korean for idiot)

so yesterday at the office, while waiting for my mom to finish her meeting with some people i work with (we work in the same industry), i drew up a list of my upcoming posts. i wrote a very big "randomness" on the sheet of paper i had, and once again, it worked!

firstly, to satisfy my o.c.-ness for alternate posts, i finally committed to the idea of making picture posts. some friends i've talked to have encouraged me to make some in this blog. also, i was inspired by another friend who posted great pictures he took with only point-and-shoot cameras.  i agree with his idea that you don't necessarily need a dslr to produce amazing pictures. if you have a good eye or a nice concept, having only low-tech equipment should not hinder you from taking a shot. so you'll see some of mine in here in a while and i'll add others in the future, whether mine or of others. right now, i thought of tumblr and had a funny thought of just reblogging cute pictures from wherever, but i digress.

the "randomness" reminder also made me chuckle a bit since the ideas that kept flowing were indeed just that. some of them came from looking at things on my desk or cubicle (paper clip or writing on scratch paper). others were from a ripple effect of those ideas (sheets of paper to doodling to tattoos). looks like i'm on a roll and tonight will fly by so fast XD

letting my randomness out

i've actually had a lot of attempts at blogging. i tried one at friendster (which, by the way, is deleted now). i also had one at multiply. it was better there since i had interaction with some of my friends on some of my entries. alas, it's (the multiply account) on its deathbed now. the farthest i've gone on facebook are notes and they don't actually count as blogs. i also have an older one here. i created it august of last year but unfortunately, my first post was made last april. i updated with another one 2 weeks after that but i haven't posted since.  i'm doing this now in lieu of that one.


since i do not have the foundation of journaling, i'm not as consistent at posting as i'd want to be. i did have diaries before, even the cutesy ones with various cartoon characters. i also had the ones with locks so that no one could pry on my thoughts for the day, my raves about my crush, or my childish rants about my 'rents and sibs. but i always ended up reading over them after i've stopped writing for about half a year. it pained me when i shredded the pages and threw them away, but i felt weird about only having 6 months of a year recorded, and with seemingly senseless, loose-ended entries at that.


also, i'm a control freak. admittedly, i've been hindering myself from posting stuff because of certain rules i made for myself. so i failed miserably at keeping a blog. (side note: i'll be reposting some of my old blogs here because they need a new abode. one of them is about this topic)


but i've recently learned the secret to my blogging success - being random!!! that's what i do with my posts in the forum that i'm a member of (shameless advertising - rocketboxx.net); and i must say that i am quite enjoying my interaction with a lot of people there. a word of caution though: it's k-pop (or korean pop)-related. it's about the korean boy band u-kiss, who i love dearly like nephews or cousins. they're a great bunch. check them out! check out the forum as well! i've made friends there who blog too and they've shared that randomness is the way to go. now knowing myself, i believe that this is for me too.


so, let the chaos ensue! hwaiting!!! (that's a korean cheer  - and this is another post altogether) :D